I just wanted to say what an awful morning it has been thus far, and really hardly any morning has even passed. When I woke up and stumbled to the kitchen to parch my thirst, I saw to my absolute horror my new frocks strewn in the corner on the floor with all sorts of yucky used clothes. Marian my darling sister (yes I say this with bitterness) had decided to clear the shared cabinet and pulled out all the clothes that didn’t belong to her and threw them in with the rest of the washing. Hoping that they weren’t dirty, I fished them out in a vain attempt to stop more germs from crawling onto them but was sadly informed that there was no use doing so as the wash contained such unsterile items as my brother’s pee-y underpants. Hurrah. And then, in the car, my dad informed me that my grandfather has colon cancer. FUCKING HELL. Why is everyone getting cancer? There’s is something wrong with the world. I want to shout and scream and beg them to stop. Beg who?
And then my dad warned me for the umpteenth time that I “had better” get my As this year. Whereupon I felt the stress and fear seize my neck and shoulders and I wanted to say I’m trying, but what if I can’t? How do you think that makes me feel about myself? How easy do you think it is?
And for the umpteenth time I tried to calm myself down by telling myself that I could only do my best but for the life of me I cannot fathom how my father believes he can help the situation by threatening me. Honestly it makes me want to cry. Or cry. Which is really what I’m doing now, in the study area no less.
God help me.
3 Comments
December 1, 2006 at 2:49 am
*hugs*
December 1, 2006 at 4:12 am
i second that!! a hug at least. its just one of those shitty days thats made worse by the fact that its exam time and everyone’s tempers are frayed. can’t wait to see you again sugah puff!!! love love (ewwww so bloody emo)
December 5, 2006 at 11:53 pm
hi everyone, since you all read grace’s blog which is clearly the most consistently updated one, after mine of course. haha
i want to say, I MISS ALL OF YOU and without a doubt, you miss me too, i know. But what i really wanna say is, even though i don’t talk to all you guys frequently on msn, i do make it a point to get updated from my trusty ‘moles’, especially priscilla who is very good for objective, halfway out and in of the circle kind of views.
muah!
p.s. big hugs to everyone who’s been having a bad day or bad days cos we’re lucky people to have our friends and families